Welcome Home, You're Going Insane

Ponyboy's finally home now.
He just woke up and he said he can't remember any of the hospital.
Darry gave him the book.


I feel so bad for reading the note now. Stupid, stupid, Soda.


A Soc came by to see Soda, I was in my right mind not to let him in, but Darry told him to go right up.
What is wrong with him? He's one of the reasons Johnny's dead!

Ponyboy just yelled something. I couldn't hear all of it but I heard,"I---knife. I --- Bob."
Darry looked at me with wide eyes and hurried to Pony's room.

I heard, "I think you should go now Randy," and Randy came down the stairs his face pale. He looked at me and quickly turned his head and hurried out.
I just glared.
Darry came down the stairs and said, "Ponyboy thinks he was the one who killed Bob, he thinks Johnny is still alive."
I felt the colour drain from my face.

What have we done.




* * *

Thankfully, at the hearing, the judge didn't ask Ponyboy anything about that night. He just asked how he liked living with us.
I was shaking through the whole hearing .
Everything went fine, thank god.



Something's wrong with Ponyboy though. His grades are slipping and he isn't acting like himself.

I'm so worried.