Slumming Around

Ponyboy's gone with Two-Bit to visit Johnny and Dally. I wanted to go with them but I gotta work.

The rumble is tonight, I can't wait till I can beat the crap outta those no good Socs. They're the reason Johnny's dying. I get angry just thinking about them. Those good for nothing Richie Rich's have got everything so why d they have to go and ruin our lives?

Business today is pretty slow, just the usual teenage gals dropping by to see me. The only good they do keeping me updated on Sandy. They say she's doing alright, a little bored in Florida and her grandmother won't let her do a thing. Basically, she just goes to school and goes straight home everyday.
I asked them about the letters I'd sent her. They didn't know, but they promised they'd ask her next time they spoke.
Gosh, I miss her.
But maybe it was for the best, could we of raised the baby on our own?
I don't know, maybe, but it would of been hard. Real hard.
I haven't had much time to talk to Darry about this. The only advice he gave me was to forget about her, it's a thing of the past.
Ponyboy is too young to understand. I guess I am too, but it sure doesn't feel that way right now.

Boss just yelled at me for daydreaming, again. Better get back to work.
* * *

It's around 2 o'clock, finally got me break.
So I'm sitting here, eating my mars bar and drinking my bottle of coke, and I realize, she didn't leave because of me.
I offered to marry her, I offered to take care of her, take care of the kid. But was it her parents who made her move? Or was it her choice?
I know Sandy. The only way she would of left was if she thought it was the right thing to do.
I'm sure, that if the kid was mine, she would of stayed and married me. But if the kid wasn't. mine . . .
I hurled my coke at the wall and watched it shatter.
Did she leave in shame then?
I wouldn't of cared, I would of forgiven her!
I forgive her now!
Out of all those girls at the gas station, all those girls at school, all the girls I've ever met, I justed wanted to have Sandy.
I don't even care that she was with someone else, I would've taken care of that kid anyways.

Wait, who is this jerk who stole Sandy anyways?
I swear, if I ever meet him, I'll beat his brains out.

I don't think I can work now. I can't think straight I'm so angry.
I need to figure out who this inconsiderate piece of crap is.
At least I'll have the rumble tonight to distract me.



*Special thanks to Tess Hoover, and her angry issues for giving ideas for angry insults, such as
"inconsiderate piece of crap"