Ode to Sandy

Sandy why'd you have to do this to me
Cheated on this guy, I mean, really
You got pregnant with another man
Then moved to Florida, or was it Japan?

Johnny died, Dally's suicide
Random Girl: They were so hot, why'd they have to die
Ode to Sandy, Ode to Sandy
Come back to me!
Random Girl: They were so hot
Other Random Girl: But now they're old and smelly

Slumming Around

Ponyboy's gone with Two-Bit to visit Johnny and Dally. I wanted to go with them but I gotta work.

The rumble is tonight, I can't wait till I can beat the crap outta those no good Socs. They're the reason Johnny's dying. I get angry just thinking about them. Those good for nothing Richie Rich's have got everything so why d they have to go and ruin our lives?

Business today is pretty slow, just the usual teenage gals dropping by to see me. The only good they do keeping me updated on Sandy. They say she's doing alright, a little bored in Florida and her grandmother won't let her do a thing. Basically, she just goes to school and goes straight home everyday.
I asked them about the letters I'd sent her. They didn't know, but they promised they'd ask her next time they spoke.
Gosh, I miss her.
But maybe it was for the best, could we of raised the baby on our own?
I don't know, maybe, but it would of been hard. Real hard.
I haven't had much time to talk to Darry about this. The only advice he gave me was to forget about her, it's a thing of the past.
Ponyboy is too young to understand. I guess I am too, but it sure doesn't feel that way right now.

Boss just yelled at me for daydreaming, again. Better get back to work.
* * *

It's around 2 o'clock, finally got me break.
So I'm sitting here, eating my mars bar and drinking my bottle of coke, and I realize, she didn't leave because of me.
I offered to marry her, I offered to take care of her, take care of the kid. But was it her parents who made her move? Or was it her choice?
I know Sandy. The only way she would of left was if she thought it was the right thing to do.
I'm sure, that if the kid was mine, she would of stayed and married me. But if the kid wasn't. mine . . .
I hurled my coke at the wall and watched it shatter.
Did she leave in shame then?
I wouldn't of cared, I would of forgiven her!
I forgive her now!
Out of all those girls at the gas station, all those girls at school, all the girls I've ever met, I justed wanted to have Sandy.
I don't even care that she was with someone else, I would've taken care of that kid anyways.

Wait, who is this jerk who stole Sandy anyways?
I swear, if I ever meet him, I'll beat his brains out.

I don't think I can work now. I can't think straight I'm so angry.
I need to figure out who this inconsiderate piece of crap is.
At least I'll have the rumble tonight to distract me.



*Special thanks to Tess Hoover, and her angry issues for giving ideas for angry insults, such as
"inconsiderate piece of crap"

No News is Good News

I'm writing this as I'm in the waiting room.
Doc won't give us the news about Johnny or Dally, says that information is just for "the family". Can't that half brain idiot get it through his skull? We are their family, or as close as it gets.
Darry is, once again, going half mad. He can't stand just waiting around for some quack to tell us what we can and can't know about our friend's conditions.
He's just pacing back and forth muttering something unintelligible under his breath.
Ponyboy is reading some book I've never heard of, I doubt it's interesting him too much though. He's as, or more, worried than the rest but he's hiding it pretty well.
There's so many reporters here, firing questions right, left and center. I'm doing my best to answer them so they can't bother Ponyboy.
Woah, one reporter just asked me, "Boxers or briefs?"
I decided not to comment on that one. Although, I do prefer boxers.
Another weird question I got earlier was, "Have you ever though about what it would be like to be a girl?"
Of course, that one came from a reporter from The National Inquirer. I just said "I have to go to the washroom," and hid in the third stall from the left until he'd gone away. Darry was happy to answer that question though. . .
Wait, Darry's talking with the doc right now.
* * *

Finally, the doc has agreed to tell us what the heck is going on with the two of them. He's just gone to go get their charts right now.

* * *

No news really is good news. Doc says that Dally will survive just got a bad burn on his arm.
But Johnny, oh Johnnycakes, they're not even sure he's going to make it! Broken back, third degree burns all over, even if he does survive he won't walk again.
I don't understand why this would happen, Johnny saved a church full of kids, and this is the thanks he gets?
I just don't get it, I just don't get it.

My kid brother, a hero!

We just got home from the hospital.
Ponyboy's saved a church full of kids, Ponyboy! I'm just bursting with pride right now. My kid brother, not even 14 years old, rushed into a burning building to save a bunch of kids he doesn't even know.
The doc says he'll be alright, just a couple of burns and bruises here and there but I'm real worried about Johnnycakes. We can't even go visit him he's so bad, ICU and everything.
Doc says he may not make it.
Ponyboy's gotten so many flowers, cards and even chocolates from the kid's parents.
And the newspaper the articles they're writing!
"Juvenile Delinquents Turned Heroes"
Heck, my brother's been a hero all along!

I haven't talked to Sandy since she picked up and moved. Gosh, I miss her. Her parents won't give me the address. I keep giving them letters to forward to her, but I bet they're just throwin' them in the fire or something.
Once I work up enough cash at the gas station, I'm going to Florida to find her.
Mom and Dad always did like Sandy most out of all the gals I brought home.

Darry is acting more like himself now that Ponyboy is all well and good. He so relieved he even forgot to be mad about the whole running away after witnessing a murder thing. Well, not a murder, a manslaughter.

I can't wait till Ponyboy can come home.

This is one doodle that can't be undid, home skillet.

I knocked up Sandy.
How stupid am I? Now she's off to Florida to live with her Grandmother!
Don't I have a say in this at all? What if I want to raise my own child?
Her parents hate me, they won't even let me talk to her. They even said she agrees that it's best.
I don't believe them, me and Sandy, we had something special. I wanted to marry her even before I found out.
But now she's gone and she ain't coming back.
Ah jeez, I'm just falling apart. Ponyboy's gone, Sandy's gone, Darry is just ignoring me completely and Steve is acting as if it's no big deal.
I miss Mom and Dad. None of this would of happened if they were still around.
One stupid car wreck and they're gone.

Dally ain't around today, maybe he's with the boys. I swear, if he doesn't give Ponyboy that letter I'm gunna knock his lights out.
That Soc, Cherry, showed up yesterday blubbering about how it's all her fault and how she wants to make it up to us. I don't understand what she thinks she can do, but I guess having that dead Soc's girl on our side might help.
She seems like a nice girl, for a Soc. Why she was going out with that jerk of a guy I'll never know.

I hope Ponyboy is alright.

Ponyboy's Gone!

Ponyboy's disappeared! He's run off with Johnny. No doubt Dally was the one who gave them the cash.
At first I didn't understand, until I heard about the knifed Soc in the park, then I realized they were on the run.
I wonder which one of them did it. It couldn't of been Ponyboy could it? He doesn't have a blade
. . .does he?
Johnny wouldn't have the guts, but if he thought it was those guys who beat the crap out of him he could of mustered up the courage.
What would make them so desperate that they would knife a guy?
I went over to Dally's this afternoon, almost broke his jaw trying to get him to tell me where they went. It was no use, that guys mouth is locked like a safe. I gave him a letter to give Ponyboy when he see's him. I sure hope he's doing alright.
Darry is sick with worry, he's hardly said two words to me. If I ask a question he'll just snap back the answer as if it was all my fault.
I don't understand how he could blame this on me, he was the one who hit Ponyboy. That's why he took off in the first place.
I'm so scared for my little brother. I can't even talk to Sandy, she's been avoiding me the past few days. I can't lose her in all of this too!
Us greasers, we've have had enough. We've planned a rumble with the Soc's in a week or two, hopefully Ponyboy will be back by then. But if he was the one who killed the Soc, my little brother could go to the electric chair! And if it wasn't Ponyboy, that would make it Johnny. Either way it's bound to end badly.